Isaac's First Day of Kindergarten
Clarice's First Day of 4th Grade
Chelsea's First Day of 11th Grade

Isaac was apprehensive already and so scared. I drew a heart on his hand (and Clarice's) and kissed them......I told them if they needed me, or a hug, even a kiss, to look at that heart and put that hand on their face. It was crazy at the school, hundreds of kids and clowns....dogs dressed as clowns, clowns are creepy anyway, why clowns? He clung on to me, he was attached to my hip. They told us parents to stand on the grass while the kids lined up. Clarice was fine, she went right to her class line and being the 'social butterfly' she is I had no worries about her. Isaac on the other hand is more the type that has to study things out first and make a clear decision on whether it is something he really wants to do. He wanted NOTHING to do with Kindergarten. He was so scared, his whole body was shaking, he cried quietly, tears running down his face. I wanted to cry, my eyes filled with tears, I blinked them back knowing if I started it would make it worse. I knelt down by him and held him, introduced him to the kids in line. When we finally got into his room they had the parents sit at the tables and the kids on the floor in front of the room. Isaac kept looking at me and looking at his hand, than he would slowing move his hand to his face and hold it there for a minute. He did this about six times while I sat there. He was much calmer now, not so much chaos.....the teacher explained how the kids were going to play outside while she talked to us. He did fine. He went back for testing yesterday, and did great, he even picked a flower for his teacher and put it in a vase. He is working into the fact that he will be all alone on Tuesday September 2nd, his official first day of school which I told Jason he had to take him to, way to much for me to deal with again.

Chelsea had me drive her to the bus stop, and was out of the car. I of course video taped the whole thing, she was sooooo happy about that. I try and tramatize her, I want to cause therapy at some point in her life.....he he he....I think I am pretty close to that now!

All my kids are in school....and I am feeling a little sad, I promised myself I would be fine, I am not fine..... ;~(